All I can say is that if you're expecting a stream to take you somewhere, just know that the only place you're going is to your dryer because your pants soaked right through.
The popular saying "a square peg in a round hole" is how you could explain the feeling of coming back from a life where you finally felt like your edges were rounding and you could almost fit into the round hole. Now, like an octagon in a round hole, you may slip in, but you don't fill in all the spaces.
Sometimes answers don't always drop out of the sky. They can come in different forms. Like a whisper, or a storm, or in an instagram post.
"Make your self at home" is often said when you are invited into someone else's house. Even if it is your first time being there. How to settle in when this home is much larger than a house and boundaries of "making myself at home" are more complicated than if it is acceptable for me to put my feet up on the coffee table or not.
Everyone knows the cliche "home is where the heart is". Home is typically the place where you settle down and stay. To say that, I can't ever say that I've felt 'at home'. My heart is all over. Making my home everywhere, and nowhere.
More obvious than some care to admit, there are these moments that come around to 'go.' To some they may perceive this as a sudden change and may come out of the blue, yet preparation was in the process.